October 17th, 2006
poem no. 1
akin to the unknown leaf
in the midst of the forest.
and I wait fervently,
for the eager fawn
to drown me with his solitude,
before the ants sprawl
into my existence.
or before the earth consumes
my very essence.

It's quite surreal to hear news that you don't see personally.
Every morning, we are bombarded by facts such as the continuous protest by the Opposition against the current Thai Prime Minister (PM). Much to their dismay, their attempt was put to vain because the PM entered the country from another airport. The effect though was disastrous: for two consecutive days, tourists are trapped in Thailand.
We, Pinoys, were experiencing nothing extraordinary. Heck, I was in Mendiola for three years, before I moved to Makati. The everyday sight of people protesting, chanting, and being pushed by local police makes me partially immune to news about protests. The weird thing is, in the main city, everything appears normal. Which, I guess, makes the whole thing surreal. Malls are still crowded and people are still shopping. Even the local version of tiangge (and its night market counterpart) is still flourishing. People, including us, are still fraught with high spirits to get the best price possible. In a certain way, inside looking out, it's quite funny how the international community thinks that we are at the brink of a political revolution.
Today, we decided to go into Thailand's National Museum. The only extraordinary thing that greeted us this morning was the traffic. Similar to Manila, traffic here is horrendous. The only good thing is, the taxi rate is not as horrifying as that of Manila's taxi cabs. You get trapped in a traffic and you get to pay around 80 Baht. I think it's not that bad considering that we are four in a taxi.
We still see military or police in certain areas, but business here is as usual. We even had to squeeze in and compete with a varied group of elementary and high school students inside the museum. I think if ever there is a National Tour Day in Thailand; today would mark that day. Hundreds of students dressed in their unusual uniform compete with our slight interest to know Thailand's history. Their uniforms are unusual because they match the colors of the taxicabs--yellow, orange, pink, violet, green, red. You name a color, and there might a school here somewhere with such colorful uniform.
Even at the local malls, there are students here on tour. We've been at the World Center where we had our lunch. When we moved to Siam Paragon, we were again flocked by students trying to eke their way out. They wore purple and green. If you complement them, you would have said they looked like an eggplant. So much for parallelism.
So, I guess, this is just as ordinary as any day would be. Except that we can't go out still.
There’s something about that avenue that would place it in the list of one of the most fascinating, if not intriguing areas in the country. It is home to almost everything—from fake diplomas to stolen cellular phones, from pirated CDs to extremely cheap second-hand books and magazines.
Recto Avenue is the typical old, crumbling, dilapidated area you would not want to go. It is considered unsafe, polluted, noisy, and literally dirty. The apartments and dorms lined up in that vicinity are all horrible, totally dubious if human beings actually reside in them, or they are just places designated as breeding grounds for rats and cockroaches. At night, around 8 or 9pm, after school hours, if one would be so unfortunate to pass in that area, rats as big as cats happily trudge, as if claiming liberty over human domination. And this is not an exaggeration. I think cats are personally afraid to go in that area, seeing the limited number of felines there.
And of course, Recto would never be complete without the usual scenes about snatchers, pickpockets, and thieves making their so-called living. A passerby would suddenly scream because someone took her bag or cellular phone. Or two persons in an obvious marathon, because one took the belonging of another.
And to make matters worse, the clogged traffic is an everyday experience. Heck, the road is too narrow, the students are too numerous, and the vehicles are just plain reckless. And don’t think of just crossing the street alone, unless you want to experience a painful and quite anti-climactic death due to a vehicular accident. To think the jeepney driver might not be even able to pay for your funeral expenses might even add insult to your death.
It’s even the favorite destination of those who would want to cry outrage against the government. It is the arena for the anti-establishment. And no matter how trite, courageous, or just plain hasty these demonstrations are, this is still the place that they would want to be heard. Problem is, the government officials believe otherwise. But, the fact of the matter is, this is one area that would forever be significant to Philippine history.
But, you may ask (directly or discreetly), why do I love this area? Why not? And I am not throwing the question back, akin to a philosophical ping-pong. Where else could you buy a P30 CD that plays really good songs, which could be uploaded in an iPod? Where else could you surf for P10 per hour, some of them even include promos such as P25 for three hours? Where else, do tell me, could you buy second-hand books that are still in mint condition for only P50? And where else, could you find a Banana-Q for P6; a Japanese corn for only P12; and a full meal (composed of two viands and rice) for only P25? Do tell me where else? Of course, provincial rates do not apply.
Yeah, I do miss the De La Salle neighborhood, with all its high-end restaurants, tall buildings, and maintained environment. But that represents the comfortable lifestyle. If you want to learn something about life, and I mean the nitty-gritty, dirty, or simply, the so-called real world—the ones that you could only see in documentaries; then you ought to go here.
It’s unsafe, polluted, dirty, and horrible. But it teaches a thing or two about life, and definitely, the kind of lesson that would be crucial to one’s survival. Well, just the kind of lesson that you would never learn in the four walls of your mighty academe.